omfg. why is this still going around?‘goodbye’
‘i love you’
(via jaberw0ck)
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Chapter 1
“I know.” And that was the last placid thing I said.
My brother walked in followed by a stout doctor and the sight of him set me off in ways I didn’t know I could be set off. How could I be dying? How could a fifteen year-old girl have cancer? How could my life be ruined? How? I don’t remember how it started exactly, but the next thing I knew I was being sedated. I guess my opinion was too real for them. I guess my defiance was too scary for the big, bad, know-everything doctors. Well I guess it sucked for them. But soon enough I fell, fell into the deep hole known as sedation and that’s the last I remembered for days.“Cam, I can’t do this tour,” silence, “No, my sister’s sick again and this time it’s worse.” More silence, “Of course, but my family comes first.” Pause. “Wait, really?” All I hear is the pounding of my heart and the constant beep from my monitors. “Well, she does really like your music…and maybe it will help take her mind off of…you know…” I hear a mumbling on the phone as the other person raises their voice in either excitement or disgust, I can’t tell. “Okay, I’ll ask her when she’s able to talk. Give the guys my best. ..Bye.”
I move my hand slightly so it seems like I’m just gaining consciousness instead of having listened to his conversation.
“Babe?” Dillon asks quietly.
“Hmm,” I answer sleepily. I don’t remember the last time I was this tired.
“Are you awake enough to have a conversation?” I move my head just enough for him to tell I’m nodding. “Okay, well, Love, I know you’re sick, but I’ve been asked to go out with the guys..”
Oh. The guys. Well know he has my attention.
“I told them I wouldn’t leave you.” My heart sinks, I just want my brother to have fun and live his life. He’s going to have to live for both of us soon anyway.. “So I told them I’d ask if you wanted to go out with us. You know,” he falters, “So you can have some fun..”
Fun. It seems like such a foreign concept at this point. I like it.
Theme: Linear by Peter Vidani
